Mae.Ü

my new love..

2006-10-07T01:33:00.000+08:00

SATOU SEI from Maria Sama ga Miteru

The exact opposite of most of the characters in the show: loud, rough-around-the-edges, she loves doing what she can to push other peoples' buttons. However, Sei is one of the wisest and caring characters on the show. Though seeming to have a playful and laid-back attitude, Sei has experienced many tragedies in her life, especially in her second year.

saddie.

2006-09-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

mgg-graduate na patricia tan ko. :( i was uber sad nung nalaman kong candidate xa for graduation this october. haaaay. il miss the prettiness of those eyes. :(

my greatest dilemma as of now:

2006-09-09T16:19:00.000+08:00

hindi ko magamit ng maayos mp3 player ko xe ang lakas ng kiliti ko sa kanang tenga!!! waaaah. naaasar talaga ako everytime na gusto kong gamitin ung lecheng player na yun. may iba bang paraan para di ako makiliti nung headsets?? i really really REALLY need help. naiiyak nko..

**ang weirdo ng mga tao ngaun. sila na ngang mgttxt syo kaw pa ttnungin kung cnu ka. tatawagan kp. tpos gusto png ikaw ang mgp-kilala. haha.

sowi nauna update. :P

2006-09-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

pinayagan pla c lyra kagabi.. so magkasama kami knina. i just got home. ahihi. happy day. :)

buti nlng pinayagan siya xe malayo ung pinuntahan namin. and ndi pxa nkkrating dun. buti nlng tlga. ehehe. when we got there puro libot lng. nagbasa lng ng children's books sa bookstore and muni2. haha. wla tlga kming mxadong nagawa. dko nman xe feel na mag-bowling xe bka ma-bore lng xa. aun. we had a hard time finding a place to eat. xe mganda pag memorable db? ahihi. prang ganun na nga. kya sabi niya kain nlng daw kme sa place na dpa namin nakaka-inang dlawa. ahihi. super funny. :) so we ended up eating sa sushiman ba un? waaaah! nakalimutan ko ung name!! geez. pro sana tama. sushiman ba, lyra??

we didn't wana go home pa nun kya tambay muna kme sa seattle's. usap2 bout stuff. ehehe. lugi xa xe xa lagi ngkwento. wla nman xe akong mkkwento sknya coz my life is a routine. pre-preho ginagawa everyday. kahit weekends. tpos aiun na. inabutan na kme ng ulan. naka-alis na kme around 7:30 na. and 'toh msaklap.. traffic. lakas ng ulan. kya 8:45 xa nk-uwi, ako 9:15. ahihi. pero super saya. :) :)

kahit nakakapagod. kahit wla kming mxadong nagawa. kahit ang laki ng pinroblema namin sa pagpili ng kakainan. kahit sumakit wrist and fingers ko dahil sa chopstix. kahit sumakit shoulders niya dahil sa chopstix. kahit sumakit tummy namin dahil sa kinain namin. kahit preho kming nag-palpitate dahil sa javachuva. kahit mas mahal ung ininom naming coffee kysa sa kinain namin. kahit inabot kme ng ulan!! kahit nabasa pants and chuckies kong white. kahit natalo ako ng almost 30mins nung nagpa-unahan kaming umuwi ng bahay... enjoy pa din. :)

maraming salamat sa'yo.
pinasaya mko today-tonyt.
*winx*

2006-09-07T14:03:00.000+08:00

a tribute to my bestfriend for the fartwork and the new layout. SIYA PO NAG-AAYOS NG LAYOUT KO. HINDI AKO. ahihi. i love you too, bes. :) hahaha. yeah. we communicate na lage ngaun. xe sinisipag nko mg-load and my chikka nxa. buti nlng. sowi xe di ako mxado nkk-onlyn pag nyt na dito smin. xe sa umaga ako usually onlyn. ahihi. sowi tlga. bes, mwah! :P

sana payagan c lyra bukas!!!

2006-09-06T14:09:00.000+08:00

im not home and i cant update in public. hihi. :P ay. im going out with lyra sa friday! ahahaha. mainggit kyo, guys! bwahaha. dutzie, sama ka sa'min. kaso nga lang bka ndi ka payagan. wahaha! laftrip! :)

my livejournal is updated. nadelbloom.livejournal. :)

2006-08-31T22:35:00.000+08:00

aun na nga. i get to go home with tina every tuesday. kasabay ko xe siyang umuwi kagabi. eh pareho pla kmi ng uwi tuwing tuesdays so aun :) sabay kami uuwi plge. ahaha. super saya xang ksama xe ang daming kwento. daming usapan. and masaya pag di mxadong nagkikita xe mdami ding utang na kwento. hehe. kya c dutzie ang taong may pinakamaraming utang na kwento skn. :)

oh lyra. i missed your updates. hahaha. akala ko di kn mgb-blog forever. buti nlng. :) i love your blog tlga. kahit mejo di ako mk-relate ska kahit puro tungkol sa OLG ska kahit dko kilala mga taong binabanggit mo ska kahit yaw mong my nagbabasa ng blog mo ska kahit weird mga topic mo ska kahit na u do all your best to bore ur readers.. magbabasa pdn ako. ehehe. tigas ng ulo ko noh?

basta!

tomorrow punta akong uste. watch ng game ni tina. interrogation moment kami bukas. ahihi. ay. my livejournal is updated na din pla. visit niyo po. salamat. :)

2006-08-31T14:22:00.000+08:00

yey! i get to go home with tina every tuesday. hahaha. i missed her so. il tell you more about her next time. tinatamad ako ngaun eh. mwah. :)

2006-08-26T00:24:00.000+08:00

"Anything less than mad, passionate love is a waste of my time."

cute noh? a got it from an email sent by jehan. :)

2006-08-24T23:29:00.000+08:00

This is simple. Just:
1. Emphasize all lines that apply to you.
2. Tag five more people after you finish, complete with links to their sites.
3. Let the person you've tagged KNOW that they've been tagged, for Pete's sake.

I wish I was a different ethnicity.
I have an eating disorder.
I'm short.
I'm tall.
I think I'm really attractive.
I prefer winter over summer.
I'm a geek.
I'm a shopaholic.
I'm reasonably intelligent.
I'm attracted to girls.
I'm attracted to boys.
I like British accents.
I smoke regularly.
I drink regularly.
I smoke socially.
I drink socially.
I get drunk easily.
I do drugs.
I will never date a bad kisser. -yikes. :)
I've lied to avoid kissing them again.
I brush my hair at least 50 times a night.
I'm religious.
I'm not religious but have morals.
I lie frequently.
I'm impulsive.
I'm hardworking.
I liked "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind".
"She's All That" is one of my favourite movies.
I'm good at History.
I speak more than two languages.
I enjoy taking pictures.
I like spending money on myself.
I like spending money on others. –depende sa tao. :)
I have a regular income.
I earn money on a job-by-job basis.
I pay my own bills.
I rely on my parents for money.
I can cook. -sana masarap luto ko. :(
I enjoy cleaning.
Tidiness is a must in my life.
I like clutter.
My idea of good music is Britney Spears.
I have heard of Blonde Redhead.
I enjoy Blonde Redhead.
I'm fashion-conscious.
I have good taste. –sana. haha. :)
People tell me I have good taste.
I excel academically.
I'm told I have yet to fulfil my potential. –my mom..
I'm good at sports.
I'm good at certain sports.
I couldn't do sports to save my life. -?
I'm creative.
I'm artistically inclined.
I want to be an artist when I grow up.
I want to be an engineer when I grow up.
I eat when I'm upset. –a lot. :)
I cannot adapt to change.
I'm interested in politics.
I have shoplifted.
I download MP3s.
I've done underage drinking.
I've gone underage clubbing. –good girl tlga ako.
I can dance reasonably well.
I can dance extremely well.
I dance like a cardboard gorilla.
I can sing. –everybody can sing naman db?
I sing like someone stepped on my foot.
I can swim.
I enjoy surveys.
I enjoy surveys when I'm bored.
I keep a journal.
My teachers don't like me.
I enjoy controversy.
I can be a bitch/bastard.
I have a thing for bad boys/girls.
I have tattoos.
I've been in a nudist colony.
I'm not sure if I want to have children.
I'm not sure if I'll get married.
I know who I will marry.
I'm interesting.
I'm a good liar. :)
People enjoy talking to me.
I annoy people from time to time.
I'm a born leader.
I'm a born leader but shouldn't lead. –hahaha.
I enjoy felching. –felching?
I have a foot fetish.
I have a shoe fetish.
I watch "Sex and the City".
I don't think Sarah Jessica Parker is pretty. –I like her so much. :)
I want to be J.Lo.
I cut myself.
I've cut myself.
I hate people who pretend to be suicidal. –amen to that.
I hate popular people.
I think cheerleading is a sport.
I'm photogenic.
I live in Chucks.
I think graffiti is art.
I have dated a criminal.
I have been cheated on.
I have cheated on someone. –profs?
I have a temper.
I like playgrounds.
I dance in the rain.
I'm obsessed with Shakespeare.
I have tan lines. –di pdn natatanggal. :(
My favourite colour is pink.
My favourite colour is black.
I would classify myself as emo.
I'm musically inclined.
I like listening to music.
I like music-blasting cars.
Thongs are comfortable.
I like flip-flops.
I know what monogamy is...
...and I believe in it. –ahihi.
I want to be a social worker when I grow up.
I have sibling/s.
My sibling/s annoy/s me.
I think "South Park" is funny.
I believe in LOVE. -fucking love.

2006-08-19T05:50:00.000+08:00

UNDER CONSTRUCTION :)

i still love this song..

2006-08-12T23:32:00.000+08:00

you should've seen by the look in my eyes, baby
there was somethin missin'
you should've known by the tone of my voice, maybe
but you didn't listen
you played dead
but you never bled
instead you lay still in the grass
all coiled up and hissin'

and though i know all about those men
still i dont remember
cause it was us baby, way before then
and we're still together
and i meant, every word i said
when i said that i love you i meant
that i love you forever

and im gonna keep on lovin you
cause it's the only thing i wanna do
i don't wanna sleep
i just wanna keep on loving you

and i meant every word said
when i said that i love you i meant
that i love you forever

from my livejournal, June29, 2006

2006-08-12T23:13:00.000+08:00

thursday. 5pm. room 103. NCM204.

2pm labas ko kanina. pro umuwi ako ng 6pm.

obssesed nko. hinanap kita sa buong campus... kasama c dyna. yes. u heard it right. sa buong campus. ginawa ko po. coz i wana see you before my weekend. xe nga db wla nkong skul bukas. we started sa 3rd flr. wla. 2nd flr wla din. then sa first floor. room 103, andun ka na. sa wakas. nakita din kta. haha. u were sitting on the 3rd flr of the classroom. extreme left. pucha. pagdaan na pagdaan ko plng ng room nakita na agad kita. halos himatayin ako. u weren't wearing ur baby blue cap. naka-uniform ka na nga eh. ang ganda mo. promise. :)

u saw me looking at you. second time na un na nahuli mkong tinititigan ka. feeling ko nag-blush ako. yikes. then dun lang ako sa labas ng door ng room niyo. patingin-tingin. kunwari my hinahanap. kunwari late na sa klase at di na mkpasok. pro ung totoo, xempre i wana look at you... ng matagal. pro hindi eh. halata mo na ata na lagi kitang tinitignan. tinuro pa nga ako nung guy na katabi mo. then you smiled... hehe. my braces kpla. pareho pa ata tyo ng kulay. hehehe. grabe. next level na toh.

siguro mga 2minutes lang kita natitigan. bitin nga eh. sa monday pa kita ulit makikita. nakakahiya na. mahuhuli mo na naman akong nktayo sa labas ng room niyo... na tinitignan ka. nu ba yan. asar. bitin tlga. pero mejo nalungkot ako nung pauwi nko. xe di kayo pareho ng facial expressions. mas blooming ka. mas masayahin ka. lagi ka xeng nksmile. xa hindi. inaayos mo hair mo. xa hindi. nkblush-on ka. xa hindi gumagamit un. i dunno. mejo na-disappoint lng ako. pagod lng cguro. nilibot ko lng kya buong campus. cnong di mkktulog sa fx nun?

i expected too much. wla lng cguro xang katulad. wlang mkkpalit sknya. iba siya. iba ka. i liked her that way and i loved everything about her, even major flaws. u can never replace her. lam ko nman un eh. siguro nami-miss ko lng xa. kya ganito ako syo. siguro nga...sorry po ah? whatever ur name is.

lakas ng ulan knina. buti nlng. ngksundo na naman kmi.

not Esteban, Tan pala.

2006-08-12T00:48:00.000+08:00

a friend asked me why i do such terrible stuff. "sorry ah. gaga xe ako. masanay ka nalang sa'kin na ginagawa toh. sorry tlga.." totoo naman tlga. i try my best na maging honest sa'yo. kahit di ko sabihin lahat, il give u a hint nalang. at least pde mong hulaan. ahihi. labo noh? ayos lang yan. kakayanin ko po para syo. :)

I'd rather have my hands crushed than my heart crushed.

i dunno if tonight was bad or good. apat na tao xe ung nagparamdam sa'kin ngaun. apat na taong nagparamdam sa'kin after hundreds and thousands light years. first was my supposed-to-be-buti-nalang-di-natuloy ex-manliligaw. daming messages sa friendster. lalo na sa text. pati ym ko pinatulan. miss na daw niya ko tlga. tama ba? ahihi. in fairness, isang taon na kming di nag-uusap tpos biglang mgppramdam. weird. second ung just-like-me bestfriend-cousin ko. la lang. kamustahan and all. usap-usap bout sa lovelyf. tinatanong kung meron ako ngaun. ehehe. last february pa nung huli ko cyang naka-usap. kaka-miss. third si used-to-be-my-only-one. nag-message sa'kin sa mail. wants to have something back. i dunno. i might not do it. dont wanna see her again eh. forth is my sana-magkatotoo-dreamlover na si micheal. he texted lei, my friend, asking stuff bout me. kilig! so aun. all of that happened in one night lang. cute db? ahihi. :)

Nais kong magpakalasing

dahil wala ka

nanakatingin sa salamin at nag-iisa

nakatanim pa rin ang gumamelang

binalik mo sa'kin

nang tayo'y magkahiwalay

ito'y katulad ng damdamin ko

kahit buhusan mo ng beer

ayaw pang mamatay

Giliw, wag mo sanang limutin

ang mga araw na hindi sana naglaho

mga anak at bahay nating pinaplano

lahat ng ito'y nawala

nung iniwan mo ako kaya ngayon…

Ibuhos na ang beer sa aking lalamunan

upang malunod na ang puso kong nahihirapan

bawat patak, anong sarap

ano ba talagang mas gusto ko

ang beer na 'to o ang pag-ibig mo?

Nais kong magpakasabog dahil olats ako

kahit ano hithitin, kahit tambutso

kukuha ako ng beer at ipapakulo

sa kaldero't lalanghapin ang usok nito

lahat ay aking gagawin

upang hindi ko na isiping

nag-iisa na ako

ganda ng song. super nakaka-relate ako. hehe. miss ko na ung beer. :( sarap pa naman ng feeling pag umiinom. who wants to drink with me? sagot ko.

Crack the code:
Patricia Esteban

i saw you again. same time, same place, same chair. u looked so pretty. ewan ko lng pero biglang nagbago. ur a different person now. di mo na xa kamukha. siguro dahil di ko na matandaan itsura niya ngaun. nagbago na rin siguro siya. ibang-iba ka sa kanya. ibang-iba siya sa'yo. god. you're so pretty. nsa crush-na-kita stage na naman ako.

loved you all the way.

2006-08-05T22:05:00.000+08:00

i learned something new and very important tonight.

The internet is not a garbage dump. Stop putting garbage on it.

he's right. tinamaan ako. ur right lyra. kya cguro di kn mxado ngu-update noh? ahihi. :) ay dutzie! speaking of smoking...

i've tried smoking na last summer. marlboro lights pa nga ata. ska may isa pa, ung menthol. nsa antipolo ako nun, with my classmates. eh i was so drunk na nun xe ung isa kong classmate wla nang ibang nakitang painumin kundi ako. brandy pa nman. :/ so there, ang aga pa nun tpos ako super bangag na. eh my session pa kmi with our prof later in the night so sobrang di ko na alam gagawin ko. i was really sleepy and high. so ung mga buisit kong adik-sa-dota-mates pinatry akong mg-smoke. the taste was awful. super duper uber awful (in tagalog: mapakla? pero ung menthol mejo ok ung lasa, though mapakla din). for me, ung smell nung cigarette preho sa lasa nia (o nito). pero effective nman ung cigarrette na stimulant? tama ba? so ang ginawa ko nlng, swimming with ASDM kahit madaling araw na at super lamig nung water sa pool. hehehe. ang saya kya. :) ah ewan. basta i promised myself i'd never smoke. never ever forever. kahit prehong smokers parents ko. kahit sabi nila masarap. ampanget kya ng lasa. eewsh.

kya ikaw bes, wag it-try ok? not good for you. so so not good. kahit mdaming BI, wag magpapadala ok? tignan mko, good girl ako. tanggera nga pero ndi nman smoker. ehehe.

tssss.

2006-08-05T19:43:00.000+08:00

you really piss me off. i never knew how much of a liar you are. you said the sweetest things. you tried all your best. you cried really hard. you sacrified things i never thought you'd give up. u made me believe you. i did, though i knew they were all lies. i love you. you know how much i do. but u wasted it. all i did was wasted. you knew id cry. but u still did it. u still wanted it. all that's important to you is yourself. matagal ko nang alam un pero tangina, nagpakatanga ako. now i have nothing left for myself. i gave you all and i know you'd never return it back. never ever.

You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no

You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
To cry, cry me a river
Cry me a river
Cry me a river
Cry me a river

I know that they say
That somethings are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it
(Don't act like you don't know it)
All of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
(Messing with my head)
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it

im really having problems updating this blog. i dont know what to put in here. so many things are in my head but when its time to let it out, thoughts escape like shit in my head. owell. i guess il write it out on a paper first then tranfer it here. im really blank right now. il just show you pictures of my cute little photographer.

My cute little photographer...

...took these pixies :)

happy pa din naman ako kahit madami umaaway ska nagpapa-iyak sa'kin. ehehe. *wink wink* :)

...

2006-07-27T14:41:00.001+08:00

i really gotta go coz i have to see you. i haven't seen you for two weeks already. and super nagmamadali nko sa pag-update nito xe mle-late ako. god. im so excited to see you. i missed you so much.

ay, nga pla. bowling is so much fun. :)

foolish?

2006-07-20T14:17:00.000+08:00

kahit ano tlgang gawin ko. im sorry but i really dont know blogthings. i dunno how the hell did dutzie put that damn header in there. i dont even know how to change the color of this blog. pro ok nko sa orange. :) i scanned the whole site but.. arrgh. nevermind. im really bobo. hay. pasensiya na po sa lahat ng bibisita sa blog na toh. pasensiya kung di maayos. :(

nwei. its been a long week for me. wla nkong ibang inisip kundi school school school. better ba un? i dunno. i hope. i find it really shitty. anatomy, health care. my favorite subjects. super pain in the ass. including the female prof. i really wish she'd die of.. anu ba? chlamydia? i have to decide pa kung ipapahiram ko ba sa friend ko ung savings ko. he needs it kc, bka di xa mkpg-exam. i dunno but i might lend him the money. he's such a friend naman and i trust him. so un. then i still have to go to school tomorrow to get my second dose of hepaB vaccination. hay. hassle. ang layo ng school. next week prelims na. il study hard na tlga this time. i promise. i haven't failed any major exams and i won't. i really won't. di ako pwedeng bumagsak. anatomy.. good luck. lots and lots of worries. pressure pressure pressure. AND I DIDN'T SEE HER!!! today na nga lang ung time na pwede ko xang makita tpos di pa natuloy. kainis tlga!! T-T nakalimutan ko na kung ano itsura mo. siya.. ung face na niya ung familiar sa'kin ngaun. magka-iba kayo. alam ko naman yun.

adik na ko sa bowling. super super addicted na ko sa bowling. nauubos na pera ko kalalaro ng bowling. ang sarap maglaro ng bowling. pero ang bigat ng bola. mas mabigat pa ata sa'kin ung bolang kailangan kong i-roll (?) sa wooden lane. ang sarap siguro ng feeling pag nk-strike. pero imposible. sobrang hirap. break pa lang nagagawa ko, sobrang nahirapan pa ko. pinagdasal ko pa un. tumalon-talon pa ko. ang hirap mk-strike. ang mahal maglaro ng bowling. lalo na sa atc. punyeta. gusto kong maglaro ng bowling. bukas.. pagkagaling ko sa school, maglalaro ako ng bowling.. bowling.. bowling. i need new shoes nga pla. damn. ang daming gastos. pambayad pa sa bowling lane. shiyeet. adik.

nga pla. tonight. bigla kong naalala c tina. prang ten years ago pa nung huli ko siyang nakitang online. i remember her singing this to me. ahihi.

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

foolish daw ako sabi niya. i believe her naman. foolish na nga, martyr pa. yaks.

New home

2006-07-17T13:35:00.000+08:00

aww. my bestfriend dorothy made this one for me. ahihi. katamaran ku tlga sa lhat. asus. if i know.. yaw nia lng ng lj.

nwei. sa bagay. i better quit lj already. xe daming memories. memories that i better not remember.. or even keep anymore. yikes. drama to the max na naman. ehehe. nwei. my latest fortune cookie says:

Love endures only when lovers love many things together and not merely each other.

pero for me?

...sometimes lovers dont have to like many things together or even change each other.

that's what i believe. ahihi. happy blogging for me. i hope to have more time updating this. thanks ulit dutzie. il fix the layout and all next time. promise. loved blogspot anyway.

=)